Week 1 at home was great, now at the beginning of week 3....its still great! But, truth be told the sleep deprivation is starting to catch up *wink*wink*
I don't know if its because he is our second or because with two kids you just don't have time to waste time, but this newborn business doesn't seem as stressful as last time. Don't get me wrong, it is still hard, but I remember being a complete wreck last time around. Ty couldn't leave, I was always tired, I couldn't find time to do anything else except watch the baby, and the like. I guess we can thank the NICU for getting Wade on a schedule because that has helped a ton. It is also great that Tav seems to love helping Wade!
Thru this entire process starting New Year's Day, I haven't felt overly scared, or anxious, or stressed, or overwhelmed. Of course there is the natural feelings that come with having a baby, and I don't want to undermine the seriousness of preterm labor, a premature baby, or labor in general-quite the opposite. It is a scary situation, filled with unknowns and pain, and apprehension. That is what makes this such a learning and growing and personal experience.
We know that so many people were praying for us. I know how easy that is to say, but seriously we KNOW it, we felt it, we saw it! I was blessed with peace throughout this process from the start (before in fact). The prayers on our behalf were answered! Peace, health, safety, comfort, doctors, nurses, the hospital and staff-and those are just specific to this situation, there are tons of other blessing that were all ready established that eased potential stresses.
The thing is I know my personality and I know that I would normally freak out, complain, gripe, cry, etc, but those things did not take over. Sure bed-rest in the hospital is not fun and I missed my Tav, and had it gone longer who know what state of mind I would have been in, but it didn't and things went as smoothly as possible for the circumstances. Wade was able to fully absorb the steroids before being born which helped is lungs, I was able to be monitored and NICU was ready as soon as Wade came. I can't count how many people were at the ready to help with Tav or whatever we needed, as well as checking in on us and praying for us.
I've always trusted in prayer, I may not have a million fancy experiences, but this is one. And it is one that will stay and become part of my testimony and conversion. I don't know what to say more than THANK YOU! Family, friends, ward members, people who pray for the sick, people who pray for doctors, nurses, hospitals, people who pray for those in need of comfort, thank you!
